Board Thread:Wiki Discussion/@comment-36685135-20180823200640/@comment-36685135-20180823211356

I won't disagree with anything you guys have said thus far. It was difficult to see a good friend of mine being accused left and right of all kinds of things that he assured me never happened. I don't know what really happened, so I'm not going to pretend as though I know whether he's guilty or not. That's simply something I've chosen to leave up to the accuser and the accused.

I did message McJeff on the Bully Wiki last night, but I felt like reaching out to all of you here was a more open and honest approach.

I understand that there is a lot of negativity around my name. Some people love me, some people hate me, and some people wish the worst for me. Dealing with hate 24/7 gets to you sometimes. Anyone who claims that it doesn't is someone I doubt has truly experienced it the way I have.

It's no excuse for my past behavior, but it hopefully gives you an idea of the mindset I was in. People would throw all kinds of accusations against me. Some even discussed how they could destroy my "YouTube career". I was in a mindset where I felt like lashing back at people, sticking my middle finger up, and making it clear that I'm here to stay whether they like me or not.

I'm not a good person. I don't think I'm a bad person either. I think I'm just someone who was quickly faced with a situation I didn't know how to properly handle. I made stupid choices and ended up fueling the flames in the process.

I can't repair what has been done, but I can apologize and make attempts at moving on.